Being aware of simplicity this month is different than I thought it would be. It's been a brutal month of colds, fevers, sore throats and ear infections with my children and my husband. Caring for a so many sick people has made me keep things very basic just so I can get by. Things that were once so important have lost their intense meaning in my life. On the flip side, many things that I didn't think important are now seen with fresh perspective.
I've just finished reading Brennan Manning's book, Ruthless Trust. He reminded me that little children look at the here and now. They don't worry about the future. They live in the moment and they enjoy the moment. That is exactly what I seek. Sometimes I spend too much time thinking about the future and remembering the past that I forget the present.
Late afternoon yesterday and all through last night, I received the opportunity to be that little child of God and live in the here and now. My little three year woke up from her nap screaming in pain. From the location of the pain, I soon figured it was an ear infection. The first available appointment at the doctor's office wouldn't be until Tuesday at 11:30 am. I prepared for a long night ahead.
All thoughts of what I was planning to do were gone in an instant. Nothing mattered but comforting my child and easing her pain. I held my daughter and rocked her while singing songs of praise. Finally, she fell asleep. Despite the Motrin given to help with pain management, my little girl whimpered in pain throughout the night. It's a very hard thing to listen to and know there is nothing else to be done but pray. Pray I did. Prayers for wisdom, healing and trust were voiced, not only for my daughter but for me.
All thoughts of what I was planning to do were gone in an instant. Nothing mattered but comforting my child and easing her pain. I held my daughter and rocked her while singing songs of praise. Finally, she fell asleep. Despite the Motrin given to help with pain management, my little girl whimpered in pain throughout the night. It's a very hard thing to listen to and know there is nothing else to be done but pray. Pray I did. Prayers for wisdom, healing and trust were voiced, not only for my daughter but for me.
Today I watch my three year old in a new light. I'm trying to learn from her, to be that little child in God's eyes. I want to run to the knees of God and stand next to Him, feeling his arms around me. I want to be surrounded with God's other children. I want to be free in His spirit. I want to be the woman that God created me to be.
2 comments:
aren't children great reminders of what is important. Thank you for reminding me to pay more attention to my children
Prayers for a speedy recovery
God Bless
Karen
How clear a picture you created of holding your sweet girl through the night and how nothing else mattered. God Bless you and hope she is much better!
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