Living a Dream and Letting It Go

Growth.

It is happening all the time.

Even when I don't want to see it, it is happening.

My girls are growing right before my very eyes.

When I was a toddler and I hoped that what ever was in front of me would disappear, I'd close my eyes, tight, real tight.

Whatever "it" was, it never did go away.

I've been trying that technique now for several years.

It's not working.

I've closed my eyes real tight and thought that maybe, just maybe, my girls will just stay the same age. They didn't.

They grew and changed.

I am sad.

All of those years of hoping and dreaming of a family... It's here. I am living my dream

and

yet

I am sad.

My dream is passing by so quickly. I hold on so tightly. I don't want to let it go. It starts to slip from my finger tips.

No. Please. Not now.

I'm not ready.

It's gone.

My dreams are no longer my dreams.

They are God's dreams.

He has dreams for my daughters.

"No," He tells me. "They are not your daughters. They are my daughters."

He has dreams for His daughters?

He has dreams for His daughters. I repeat it over and over.

HE has dreams for HIS daughters!

I'm elated! I am filled with joy, excitement, anticipation!

I kneel before my King and slowly open my fists that held those dreams ever so tightly. I raise my open hands and I praise my King.

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name