The adult, who is to proclaim the most essential points of the Christian message, is to listen to it with the children, and to observe the children in order to know their needs, should remind himself that he is the "unworthy servant" of the Gospel. The adult's function as a mediator is necessary in the evangelization; nonetheless, it should not be overvalued. The Catechist proclaims a Word that is not one's own and assists the child's potentialities, which in no way belong to oneself.
- from The Religious Potential of the Child by Sofia Cavalletti
I heard those words read during the formation class. Unworthy Servant.
Those words stuck to me the rest of the day. I went from feeling great about the class to questioning why I was there. I was "unworthy" to be there. All the self -doubts, the low self-worth, and fear came back again. Who did I think I was taking this formation course?
On the drive home, I asked God some hard questions. Did he really call me? Why did I feel so unworthy? Then I was reminded of the centurion's words to Jesus.
Lord, I am not worthy to have you enter under my roof; only say the word and my servant will be healed. - Matthew 8:8The centurion felt he was unworthy but asked in faith for healing of his servant. Couldn't I do the same? Couldn't I ask Jesus to heal me of my self-doubt, my low self-worth, my fear? So there, in the car, sitting in traffic, tears streaming down my cheeks, I asked to be healed of my fears, self-doubt and low self-worth. I asked to be His unworthy servant.
In the quiet of my heart, I heard,
"You are worthy. You are the daughter of the King. You are my daughter. "